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June 2009 I will be Lt. Sanders!!!! WOO HOO It's what keeps me going.
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| The first time (that I can remember) I can actually say I was free from all
sources of worry, doubt, fear, was the night before my first ministry teams Sunday.
Here at the training college, for those of you who don't know, we are ALL
broken up into teams that go and plan programs at different churches every
week. The first Sunday I was down to read scripture. Reading anything in front
of a large group has always frightened me!!! Not because I'm a bad reader but
because! lol it just does. The night before we went I sat in the common area of
our dorm and practiced the reading I had to do. Then I was reminded of a quote
that our principle said about William Booth (founder of the Salvation Army) One
of his secretaries said
"What keeps Booth going is that he is a believer in Hell!!" (I’m
paraphrasing)
I'm sure you're wondering what does that have to do with being afraid?? Well,
If I truly believed there was a hell, there is no way I would be timid about
sharing God's word! What if that was the only exposure someone EVER had to
there scripture. Anything that I do as God's instrument could save someone from
hell. I sat there that night and prayed for God to clear my mind of brokenness,
past hurt, loneliness, and most of ALL FEAR! And for that short time, I had it!!! And I call on God often to give me that peace! I want to be an officer who lives
each moment and speaks each word knowing that HELL is a real place.
"You think that was scary?? Imagine total separation from God in
Hell?"
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| The situations that frustrate me the most are ones that can't be fixed or don't have a "quick fix." I've come across one of those this week. An old wound that I thought was healed obviously wasn't and came back to reveal itself. God is continuing to show me how much I have to depend on him and him alone. He is showing me that every action and deed needs to glorify the kingdom of God. No matter how hard it might be to grin & bare it. No matter what self sacrifice needs to be made, my life should reflect Jesus Christ. I've learned that even when you let go of grudges, forgive, and attempt to move on with friendships, that means excepting that they might not do the same. I've learned that not everything thats broken can be fixed physically (or mentally) but God mends our hearts.
After I've done ALL I can
I have to let go and let God handle the rest.
It's ALWAYS going to be better off in His hands!!!
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| KIRK FRANKLIN LYRICS
"Without You"
{Chorus}
(Without You) life's a song with no end
Without You, like having a heart that won't mend
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
Wouldn't be here today without You
[Verse 2]
I admit that sometimes pride tries to hide my view
And even this gift that you gave me, I forget it's for You
And all the many days and many ways Your grace I've abused
Still you were patient and Your love loved me through
But the wind still blows and the flower still grows and one thing is still true.
(Without You) life's a wound that won't heal
Without You, nothing in this world is for real
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
Wouldn't be here today without You
Can't live, can't see Your will for me
Can't do anything
Anything
Without You, we're like a bride with no groom
Without You, it's like seeing no sunshine in June
Without You, we're just actors on a stage
Like a child who's lost his way
We wouldn't be here today
Without You, Jesus my life would be lost.
Without You, I'll never know what it cost
To see You, lay Your life down for me
From my past now I'm free
Tell me where would I be without You.
Wouldn't be here today without You
I can take a plane high up in the sky and fly for a million miles
"He's STILL working on me."
This life and ministry is nothing if I I don't keep Him first.
ABOVE
MY DREAMS
ABOVE
MY HOPES
ABOVE MY ASPIRATIONS
I've gotta put the Lord.
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| Evangeline Booth College for officer's training has been an amazing experience so far. I am on a campus with more than 100 salvationist who answered God's call to ministry. I find it to truly be a blessing. Our Principles/staff our like no other!. When Major Howell speaks you can hear the conviction in his voice and you can see the passion in Mrs. Howell eyes as she speaks. There main focus is that of intentional worship. Showing that you have to put forth a lot of effort in order to bring souls to Christ. You have to put your all and your best into your ministry and having leaders that exemplify these qualities makes it contagious! My biggest fear was that I was the youngest cadet and preaching, but that fear is long gone! God has shown me that I'm here for a reason and that he can use even me for his glory. I didn't tell anyone about how neverous this made me but sunday morning one of the other single cadets posted a sticky note on my door with Jeremiah 1:4-10 I looked it up and it states......
5 "Before I formed you in the womb I knew [a] you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." 6 "Ah, Sovereign LORD," I said, "I do not know how to speak; I am only a child." 7
But the LORD said to me, "Do not say, 'I am only a child.' You must go
to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD. 9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, "Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant."
I've heard it before but these verses have truly blessed me Sunday. Today was our dinner with the DC and Col Crabson said to me " I've seen people sweat while preaching, I've seen knees buckle, and I've seen them become faint but none have died yet." It was funny at the time but God isn't going to put me through more than I can handle. He's just showing me how much more room there is for him in my heart and that all of "Angel" needs to move out!!! Ministries teams start next week and I have great group! I get to work with almost 200 kids every week with the peachcrest boys and girls club. What an exciting adventure that will be!! My passion is in youth ministries! I'm also excited about doing the things out of my comfort zone. Hospital visits, nursing homes, and open air (I like it ........but I shy away from these things) Pray for God to bless the ministry of all the cadets here at EBC. I know there maybe trials to come but I'm holding on to the Lord!!
Angel
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